Today is January the 9th, 2014. 2014….. can you believe it?! I guess this post is late however the year hasn’t changed yet, it is only a week after that fateful day, and I’ve been doing a little reflecting on the resolution tradition. here we go.
I want to take more pictures again. I want to get a proper lens. I want to create things. I want to be more fit. I want to be a better person. I want to be a better girlfriend. I want want want want to do these things. but how?
There’s ideas like that old money jar chestnut where you tip yourself for being good, but really what do you gain from that? does it work? chances are for me, it wont. There’s the reward for achieving what you set out to accomplish, but it just always seems too far away to even start taking that first step towards your goal. Call me self defeating, call me realistic.
New years resolutions never work because people always want to be the greatest version of themselves they can be, but dont want to put forth the effort, myself included. So this year, I’m not gonna make a list of a thousand things I need to do better or change, I’m just going to try and be more conscious of myself and how I spend my time.
Mostly, as I embark on my third semester of college, I want to try and narrow down where I want my education to lead. I want to feel like I am heading toward a career that I will enjoy and will support me throughout my life. I want to be challenged and interested. I want to be active in my life, and make sure that I don’t let myself go as the time ticks on.
This year, this is the reward, not the resolution. I can do what makes me happy while fulfilling all of these wants in the process. I just want to feel like me again.